I’m not hard. That’s what people get wrong about me. I care, I feel deeply, I give chances, I try to understand more than I probably should. I don’t move through things cold or detached, and I don’t pretend something doesn’t matter when it does. I’m soft. But I’m not [...]
You wouldn’t be able to relax. Not with me that close, not with the way I’d talk to you like I already knew exactly what I was doing. It wouldn’t just be what I said, it would be how I said it. The tone. The pauses. The way I’d let [...]
Everything feels good at first. The conversations flow, the energy is there, the connection starts building in a way that feels natural. It’s easy, it’s consistent, and for a moment, it actually feels like it might turn into something real. And then it shifts. Right when things start getting closer, [...]
I really wanted it to be you. Not just someone, not just anyone, not just something that worked for the moment. I chose you in my mind before anything even had the chance to fully play out. I saw something, felt something, and decided you were it. And I held [...]
I don’t always like them for who they are. I like them for how hard they are to get. There’s something about the distance, the inconsistency, the way they don’t fully give me what I want that pulls me in more than anything else. The less available they are, the [...]
I tell myself I want something simple. Something calm, consistent, easy to understand. No games, no confusion, no wondering where I stand. That’s what I say I want. But when it actually shows up, I lose interest. Not immediately, not in a way I can explain, but slowly. There’s nothing [...]
You keep trying to prove yourself like you’re still being evaluated. Like if you say the right things, show up the right way, stay patient enough, or give just a little more, you’ll finally be chosen. But you’re not supposed to be auditioning for something that’s already yours. You don’t [...]
It’s late, and everything feels different at this hour. The noise dies down, the distractions fade, and suddenly your thoughts get a little louder than you’d like to admit. You tell yourself you’re just up because you’re not tired, but that’s not really it. You’re thinking, and you already know [...]
You keep feeling like you owe them an explanation. Like you need to say everything the right way, make it make sense, give them a clear reason so they understand why you’re pulling back or why you’re done. It feels like if you don’t explain it properly, you’re being unfair [...]
Dear Tessa, I stayed because I really believed it would get better. Not overnight, not perfectly, but enough to make it make sense. I saw the inconsistency, I felt the gaps, I noticed the things that didn’t fully align, but I kept telling myself it just needed time. I thought [...]
