I really wanted it to be you. Not just someone, not just anyone, not just something that worked for the moment. I chose you in my mind before anything even had the chance to fully play out. I saw something, felt something, and decided you were it. And I held [...]
I don’t always like them for who they are. I like them for how hard they are to get. There’s something about the distance, the inconsistency, the way they don’t fully give me what I want that pulls me in more than anything else. The less available they are, the [...]
I tell myself I want something simple. Something calm, consistent, easy to understand. No games, no confusion, no wondering where I stand. That’s what I say I want. But when it actually shows up, I lose interest. Not immediately, not in a way I can explain, but slowly. There’s nothing [...]
You keep trying to prove yourself like you’re still being evaluated. Like if you say the right things, show up the right way, stay patient enough, or give just a little more, you’ll finally be chosen. But you’re not supposed to be auditioning for something that’s already yours. You don’t [...]
It’s late, and everything feels different at this hour. The noise dies down, the distractions fade, and suddenly your thoughts get a little louder than you’d like to admit. You tell yourself you’re just up because you’re not tired, but that’s not really it. You’re thinking, and you already know [...]
You keep feeling like you owe them an explanation. Like you need to say everything the right way, make it make sense, give them a clear reason so they understand why you’re pulling back or why you’re done. It feels like if you don’t explain it properly, you’re being unfair [...]
Dear Tessa, I stayed because I really believed it would get better. Not overnight, not perfectly, but enough to make it make sense. I saw the inconsistency, I felt the gaps, I noticed the things that didn’t fully align, but I kept telling myself it just needed time. I thought [...]
It starts as something small. A delayed response. A missed call. A conversation that does not pick back up the way it usually does. Nothing dramatic, nothing that feels like a clear problem, just enough of a shift to make you notice. And immediately, your mind fills in the gap. [...]
In my head, it is already something. Not in a dramatic way, not in a completely unhinged way, just enough to make it feel real when I think about it. The conversations replay a little differently. The moments feel a little deeper. The connection stretches just far enough to look [...]
Dear Tessa, I’m honestly confused. She keeps saying she wants more effort from me, but in my mind, I feel like I am trying. I text her, I spend time with her when I can, I show up in the ways I know how. It might not be perfect, but [...]
