I don’t say it like that.

I don’t ask for it directly, don’t sit there and tell someone I need reassurance or that I’m waiting for them to prove something to me. On the surface, I act like I’m fine, like I’m secure, like I don’t need anything extra to feel okay.

But underneath that…

I’m watching.

Watching how they show up, how consistent they are, how they react when things aren’t easy. I pay attention to whether they stay, whether they come back, whether they choose me without being pushed to.

Because I want to feel safe.

Not just in what they say, but in what they do over time. I want to know that if something shifts, if things get complicated, if I’m not at my best…

They won’t leave.

And I don’t always trust that right away.

So I look for proof.

In small things, in patterns, in moments that might not seem that significant to anyone else. I look for consistency, for reassurance that isn’t forced, for something that shows me I’m not just temporary.

Even if I don’t say it out loud.

And I know that’s not always fair.

Because I’m expecting someone to prove something before I fully relax into it, expecting them to show stability before I stop questioning it.

But that’s where I am.

Because it’s not about needing control.

It’s about needing certainty.

Tessa’s Straight-Up Perspective

You don’t want promises.

You want patterns that make you feel safe.

Final Thought: Divine Delulu Summary

It’s not about them saying they won’t leave.

It’s about them showing it… without being asked.

Disclaimer

This content is for reflection and emotional awareness, not professional advice. Take what resonates, leave what doesn’t, and always move with awareness and respect for your own boundaries.